Does it appeal for so many people here in DA and others?

Even without drawing so many popular Fan-arts?

Do I have to improve my artwork more just like most of high-leveled artists?

What am I really drawing for?

And tell me honestly: Am I really not deserving as an artist?

but it seems like I'm just good at drawing simple... not just that, but a simpliest art. But bad at complex art... it sometimes a headache when I drew that... it's still the same.

I'm still an aspiring fan-artist: I just drew fun things everyone likes or dislikes.

But things are bothering me for what I thought and I realized something I feel honest about myself: I shouldnt deserve much for a pageviews by using my fan-arts.... it feels more like a cheating excuse to gain so much scores like pageviews, faves and popularity stuff.

I just dont want something big, I dont promote.... I only did art for a normal likeable thing. Like anyone else does. And I'm deeply thankful for your big support.

I know this nonsensical journal of mine is something I let out from my mind. I just hope you understand what I wrote or said, even though I'm not very bright in understanding or writing.

I'm taking some more deep thinking for now....

[Updated 1-16-08] everyone told me that I'm alright for what I'm drawin... I guess my humor-art is much stronger and enjoyable than ordinary/complex art. Thank you everyone... those comments of yours mean alot to me.

Peace out
~ Ardee